everything

why do we even expect perfection? i know it is good to strive, but do we really expect for everything to be neat at all times? taking that aspect out of all of the equations should solve all the problems right?

i wish i could change my mind. i wish i could flip a switch from avoiding things to wanting to experience things. i wish i wasn't so scared and timid. i wish i wasn't so scared of failure.

i wish i didn't have this need for perfection in order to move forward. i wish other peoples' opinions weren't so crippling.

i need to accept that there is no juggling act in life. you are just managing what's manageable at the time being. the minute you've got control of ups and downs, everything topples over. it's nothing more you can do to prevent being overwhelmingness when it is your time.

i guess the best way to manage it is to realize 1. you are not the only one and 2. it could be worse...i guess that's the best way.